I don’t know about you, but I am a huge culprit of comparing myself to others. I mean HUGE. Contentment in my life has always been an issue, but I felt it reach a new level when I moved out to California. If I could blame it on any one thing I would blame it on our new lifestyle after we got married and moved to California. We have grown accustomed to a very sedentary lifestyle. And I don’t mean sedentary as in lay around all day and watch movies (although we do participate in that often). I am more referring to the fact that we didn’t know very many people and we just didn’t have anything to do.
I soon began to realize that I had a lot of “free time” besides working and being a wife. I was no longer in school which left me time to do other things. I began to spend countless hours “browsing” the internet. Pinterest, Facebook, Instagram…you name it, I was on it! I started this unhealthy downward spiral of comparing myself to other young married women in my life or those I saw through social media. She wears J.Crew, I want to wear J.Crew. She travels to Europe, I wanna travel to Europe. She’s super fit, I wanna be super fit. I felt this constant need to be just like these other women and do things just like them. I did all this, hoping to feel better about myself; hoping to achieve some sort of acceptance from others. But no matter how hard I tried I never felt content. Never felt accomplished. Never felt any sort of fulfillment.
Teddy Roosevelt had it right when he said, “comparison is the thief of joy”. All the time that I spend comparing myself to others, only makes me disappointed in myself and discontent with my life. It was during this struggle of discontentment that God began to speak to me, reminding me of who I am in HIm and all the blessing He has given me. I have a wonderful husband, a good job, a great family. His blessings are so evident in my life and I have so much to be thankful for. The path to joy comes with a change of heart. It’s a process and a commitment, but I am learning to find contentment and happiness every day.
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